Monday, March 11, 2013
Monday photo dump
While day light savings time can go suck it when it comes to screwing up my kids schedule. It really produced a wonderful sunset last night.
I originally was going to title this post Honey Badger + Autism but I figured some people might not know what I was talking about but if you don't go watch this not safe for work language video on Youtube.com
That's sometimes the inside joke between my husband and I. We know if she wasn't autistic she would give a shit. But she's sometimes so angry/crazy that she's "honey badger don't give a shit". Her mind doesn't work like mine, her sisters or her fathers. She gets so angry about not being able to communicate that the person who is trying to help her the most (me) get's the brunt of it. I was kicked and punched this morning trying to get a diaper on a kid who knows how to hold her urine but is terrified of the potty. Then I don't know what happened with getting on the bus but she wants nothing to do with that part of the day. For the past 2 weeks I've had to wrestle her to get her coat and her harness on and carry her to the school bus. First Then cards are helping but she's pissed about something and she can't tell us.
I'm angry at the world as well. I thought about all this while at the specialty store looking for something that she might eat the other day. I take care of her, her sister, sometimes her father but nobody takes care of me. When will that day come? Well since it's not on anyone's priority list it should be on mine. Right? At least that's what I tell myself but somehow I talked myself out of it today and I ate crap for breakfast and I ended up only having 4 points for the rest of the day at 2 pm. That's not exactly great planning. That's a rarity to. I normally don't blow my points for the day until the hour before dinner. lol
But being angry at the world doesn't help. All it does is fuel my desire to help her in any way we can. It does help to joke about it sometimes so we joke about her being all Honey Badger like sometimes. Because sometimes you just don't give a shit.
at 6:03 PM